Dancing Stars;

There’s always a fork at the end of the road. Either you choose the one you will regret forever or not. But who’s to say you will regret this choice you’re taking? You have to walk forward; you can’t turn back and change routes. What’s done will be done. So how would you know that this choice you’re making is the wrong one? And who’s to say that that route isn’t the right one? What I’m saying is, you will never know in life. Sometimes, you just have to face the fact that every route is hard, not everything is a walk in a park. We all have difficult and easy routes to cross, but at the end of the day, those choices are the ones that make us stronger. Who we are. Sometimes it’s not about which routes we choose, it’s about our attitude towards it. Why not have faith and do your best to walk through the path? The path is constant, but there are other variables too. Why let something that we cannot change affect us? We can do so much more without lingering, thinking if we made the wrong choice. Why not change our mindset or our way of handling it?

Like what they say, there’s always a silver lining. A rainbow after a storm. No matter how difficult something is, something good will come out from it. Look towards the positive side. It’s not a wrong choice, just a wrong mindset.

She sits by the window, waiting, watching, for some miracle to happen. She doesn’t really know what she’s looking for, but she continues waiting. She don’t really feel okay, she doesn’t know what’s wrong either. It’s just one of those days whereby nothing actually feels alright. Everything decides to screw up, and all that’s left is this big empty black space. All those insecurities, overthinking, trying to suffocate her alive. The worst part is, crying doesn’t help either. It’s like this endless trail of pain and misery. She knows it’s okay not to be okay at times, but this is eating her alive. Numb. Broken. Left alone inside. It’s not okay.

Define: Beauty

It's when the sun slowly crawls over the edge, spreading its beautiful light, hitting every single corner on earth. Or when the sun sets, that magnificent orange glow that follows, and the moon begins to come up. Its reflective light shines upon us, with the stars accompany it. Bright and wonderful. And or right after the storm, up rise the rainbows.

When your love ones turn to you and start smiling. It's so special, you can never replace it. That soft look in their eyes, how pretty or handsome they look. How they care for others, and mostly, you. Their faith and every part of them, is beauty. It's not always about the physical beings, but their souls.

The moment when you see your favourite colour, that's beauty to you.

Define: Happiness

When you eat after a day of not eating, and especially if it's your favourite food. When the person you love, loves you back. When someone you love calls you or text you. The first time you earn your own money by working, and when there's money in your wallet or bank. That moment when you finish your examinations, and you feel that burden off your chest. When you can sleep after a few days, week or even months of not resting well. Or waking up without any help of the alarm clocks. Doing something you love. Finally getting something you wanted for a while. When someone praises you, and they really meant it. When you can finally trust someone. Spending time with someone you love. Listening to music after a bad day. Or when that bad day turns a 180° and change for the better. Finishing a marathon and even a mere thing like a puzzle. Watching your favourite tv shows, movies or reading your books. Crying out after having a horrible time. Doing something meaningful, and making people smile. You're also happy when you see people smile. Winning a game.

And so many more things.

First installation of 20 seconds of insane courage :)

First 5 seconds: Be a man and stop acting like a coward dammit. She’s right over there with a beautiful smile, why can’t you just go ask her out! If you don’t, she will be gone, or even worse, get asked out by other guys. What if once she walks out of this door, some random guy is going to date her? And they will get married; you will never have the chance again! Unless you want to ruin a wedding, but that’s not you. Don’t let yourself regret man, do what you want to do. Aren’t you so freaking brave like literally a few moments ago, just because of that movie. Did that just suddenly disappear out of nowhere?! Pick up your courage, get your lazy ass up the sofa and walk to her. You know she leaves at five every single time she’s here, and tick tock tick tock. The clock is ticking. If you don’t, you may not have that same amount of insane courage again, and you will just be a spineless little fellow. OKAY FINE, I WILL DO IT. Take a chill pill man, jeez.

Next 5 seconds: Yes, I talk and scold myself a lot when I’m nervous, especially when dealing with such an amazing girl. I should tell you more about her, but right now, I’m kind of rushing against time. She’s standing up, ready to leave. It’s been a routine though, to see her come in at ten in the morning then leaves at five in the afternoon. It’s as if she works here, but she doesn’t. I sound like a stalker, but I’m not. I just happen to notice her one day, and, I have a little bit crush on her. I have spoken to her once or twice, but it’s all so awkward. Mostly it’s because I was being the awkward one there. She smiles to me every time she sees me though, and I melt every time she does that. She’s my sun. With her sea blue eyes, long eyelashes, perfect oval shaped face, pink sweet lips, gorgeous wavy hair, she’s just so perfect. Okay I have exaggerated it a little. But she’s beautiful and amazing. And today, I feel this adrenaline inside me, that impulse that I can do anything.

Next 5 seconds: Almost wanting to run up to her, I took a huge breath before approaching her. Heart racing, palms getting all sweaty, perspiration getting all over my face. Yes I look absolutely horrible right now, but I don’t even care anymore. I’m just hoping she would say yes. I feel as if I’m giving crazy eyes, okay relax. If you don’t, she might think you’re insane and will probably never smile or speak to you again. Just breathe in and out. Before you do anything, be calm and chill. She will like you for who you are.

Last 5 seconds: I hold her hands, look her straight into her eyes and asked, “Will you go out with me?” And guess what, she said yes.

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Define love.

What does love means to you? What does it do to you, how does it affect your life? Different people have different opinions on what is love, they love differently. Although some misinterpret the conception of love, some misunderstand, and someone truly felt it. Do you truly actually know what is it? It is said that love have tons of levels. And one of it is puppy "love". Is there even such a thing? Let's be honest, is it even love? Sometimes, you just can't assume you know. There are also different kind of love. Family, friend, partner and many more kind of love. But what is it to say it's not exactly the same? What's it to say that you don't love everyone equally?

To me, once you really love someone, you don't stop. Even when the relationship died, you just don't. There will always this small connection tied to that partner of yours, and unfortunately, you can't break it. But once you see them smile, seeing them being so happy, it's all worth it. Love is when you will do anything and everything beyond your limits to plant that particular smile on their face. It's as if you're just surviving solely on that energy. The energy that lightens up your soul once you can feel their happiness. Their emotions affect you in so many ways. Whenever you feel them being upset, you will do your best to cheer them up. But in actual fact, you're upset yourself. But you don't mind. As long as they are happy, everything will be fine.

You know you love someone when you kiss them, there's this instant spark. It's as if butterflies are fluttering fast in your stomach, you smile while kissing, it's as if life becomes automatically better. Automatically sweeter. Automatically perfect. Or when you slowly kiss them, that close distance, that heavy breathing, it builds up the spark even more. You rub their ears with your hands, that simple physical touch, sparks fly. Or when they hug you, their scent attacks you, so overwhelming, so comfortable. You make it tighter by hugging them back. You feel better instantly.

If love is all about feelings, how can you ever love someone on how they look like? How do you actually call that love? It's just a misconception of love. It's just a crush, an infatuation. If you call that love, or a factor that caused you to love your partner, then how the hell do the blind love? Not to be crude, but it's the truth. They can't see at all, they feel. So is it to say that that's a fake love? You can love from a very young age, there's no limit. But do you understand how to love? Or at least, how to love yourself before you love others? How do you expect someone to love you when you don't love yourself?

If you love someone, so many factors doesn't matter. Looks, age, distance, size and a lot more. Love conquers every single factor in life. If you ever love someone, you will make an effort. You will treasure them. So, the moment you cheat on someone, you should know you don't love them. How could you ever hurt someone you love and treasure? That's not love. That's fucked up. You can forgive them, but you know it yourself, you can't forget. It will eat you alive.

Love is all about feelings.

That moment when you saw or heard something you don't want to know about, you just want to shut yourself into a place and disappear. You will try your very best to ignore it, to not talk about it, but unfortunately your face shows it all. And then, you being someone that cannot hide anything, will say it out. Then we will start to argue and fight, and it's gonna be all your fault. Because your fucking mouth just cannot shut the hell up. You can't keep quiet and just let yourself recover. Even though there's gonna be a hole, an unsolved question over there, but it will avoid arguments. Everything will be happier. But no, what you said, can never be unsaid. There will be a strain in the relationship, it's not physically there, but it is. You want to mend it, but it seems so hard. After a few days, everything will be okay again. But you know he's still angry, and it's your fault. That you started the fault, your fault that you commented on it, your choice of words that started everything. It's as if it would never be the same, but you want it so badly to be.

Or when you receive a text message that breaks your heart, and you try to hold it in. You just try to ignore that heartache, you're not smiling. Friends sense there's something weird, something wrong. But you just chose to brush it off, because you don't want to show the weak side of you. You don't want to cry in front of your friends. You smile weakly, saying it's nothing. More text messages come, your heart sinks lower and lower. Until that point you just can't hold it anymore, you let your tears slowly flow down from your eyes, hoping nobody sees it. Although you want someone to make it all better. Then someone notices, someone asked, the most sensitive question of all, "Are you okay?" You start to break down, you tried to regain your composure, but you just can't. Tears are dropping even faster, you can't speak properly, you just face down and went off to the toilet. You start to cry, thinking it's all your fault, everything's going to be sour because of you. And you may never be able to fix it. You just don't know what to do, you can only cry and cry.

Just when you feel better, you go out, facing your friends. They are worried, but you know they can't help. They will try to comfort you, then you, being a cry baby, you ran back to the toilet to cry even more.

And you realised, if anything bad happens, it's all going to be your fault.

First installation of 20 seconds of insane courage :)

First 5 seconds: Be a man and stop acting like a coward dammit. She’s right over there with a beautiful smile, why can’t you just go ask her out! If you don’t, she will be gone, or even worse, get asked out by other guys. What if once she walks out of this door, some random guy is going to date her? And they will get married; you will never have the chance again! Unless you want to ruin a wedding, but that’s not you. Don’t let yourself regret man, do what you want to do. Aren’t you so freaking brave like literally a few moments ago, just because of that movie. Did that just suddenly disappear out of nowhere?! Pick up your courage, get your lazy ass up the sofa and walk to her. You know she leaves at five every single time she’s here, and tick tock tick tock. The clock is ticking. If you don’t, you may not have that same amount of insane courage again, and you will just be a spineless little fellow. OKAY FINE, I WILL DO IT. Take a chill pill man, jeez.

Next 5 seconds: Yes, I talk and scold myself a lot when I’m nervous, especially when dealing with such an amazing girl. I should tell you more about her, but right now, I’m kind of rushing against time. She’s standing up, ready to leave. It’s been a routine though, to see her come in at ten in the morning then leaves at five in the afternoon. It’s as if she works here, but she doesn’t. I sound like a stalker, but I’m not. I just happen to notice her one day, and, I have a little bit crush on her. I have spoken to her once or twice, but it’s all so awkward. Mostly it’s because I was being the awkward one there. She smiles to me every time she sees me though, and I melt every time she does that. She’s my sun. With her sea blue eyes, long eyelashes, perfect oval shaped face, pink sweet lips, gorgeous wavy hair, she’s just so perfect. Okay I have exaggerated it a little. But she’s beautiful and amazing. And today, I feel this adrenaline inside me, that impulse that I can do anything.

Next 5 seconds: Almost wanting to run up to her, I took a huge breath before approaching her. Heart racing, palms getting all sweaty, perspiration getting all over my face. Yes I look absolutely horrible right now, but I don’t even care anymore. I’m just hoping she would say yes. I feel as if I’m giving crazy eyes, okay relax. If you don’t, she might think you’re insane and will probably never smile or speak to you again. Just breathe in and out. Before you do anything, be calm and chill. She will like you for who you are.

Last 5 seconds: I hold her hands, look her straight into her eyes and asked, “Will you go out with me?” And guess what, she said yes.

(508 words)

Define love.

Love is all about feelings.

And you realised, if anything bad happens, it's all going to be your fault.